When I was in my teens, I used to love watching horror movies. I grew up with a solid diet of vampires, devils, ghouls, spirits, "pontianaks", "hantus" and others of the supernatural realm. Even when I knew that I would be scared out of my wits, I still found myself drawn to watching those movies.
Needless to say, I sought the company of my 2 sisters or my brother when it was time to go to bed. When this was no longer possible, I found that I had to play very loud music. My favourite was Shirley Bassey. She has such a loud and powerful voice. All I had to do was put the tape on and I felt that I was safe because, in my childish mind, I thought it would deter unwelcome "visitors" or at least trick "them" into thinking I wasn't alone.
Talking about Shirley Bassey during my lunch time yesterday, made me remember this. I remember that fear and how I dealt with it, quite successfully, I might add.
Needless to say, I sought the company of my 2 sisters or my brother when it was time to go to bed. When this was no longer possible, I found that I had to play very loud music. My favourite was Shirley Bassey. She has such a loud and powerful voice. All I had to do was put the tape on and I felt that I was safe because, in my childish mind, I thought it would deter unwelcome "visitors" or at least trick "them" into thinking I wasn't alone.
Talking about Shirley Bassey during my lunch time yesterday, made me remember this. I remember that fear and how I dealt with it, quite successfully, I might add.
Today, I still watch some horror movies. Of course, I've evolved from when I was a teenager. Now, if a show threatens to be frightening, I turn off the volume. Yes, juvenile but it works for me!!! At 50, I watch scary movies without the volume. This irritates the hell out of Stephen and Jared, if they are home!
Now, if only my fear for Malaysia, becoming so not what I think she should be, could be so easily resolved.
If only.....
