28 May 2009

Fear and how I dealt with it


When I was in my teens, I used to love watching horror movies. I grew up with a solid diet of vampires, devils, ghouls, spirits, "pontianaks", "hantus" and others of the supernatural realm. Even when I knew that I would be scared out of my wits, I still found myself drawn to watching those movies.

Needless to say, I sought the company of my 2 sisters or my brother when it was time to go to bed. When this was no longer possible, I found that I had to play very loud music. My favourite was Shirley Bassey. She has such a loud and powerful voice. All I had to do was put the tape on and I felt that I was safe because, in my childish mind, I thought it would deter unwelcome "visitors" or at least trick "them" into thinking I wasn't alone.

Talking about Shirley Bassey during my lunch time yesterday, made me remember this. I remember that fear and how I dealt with it, quite successfully, I might add.

Today, I still watch some horror movies. Of course, I've evolved from when I was a teenager. Now, if a show threatens to be frightening, I turn off the volume. Yes, juvenile but it works for me!!! At 50, I watch scary movies without the volume. This irritates the hell out of Stephen and Jared, if they are home!

Now, if only my fear for Malaysia, becoming so not what I think she should be, could be so easily resolved.

If only.....

8 comments:

masterwordsmith said...

My dear Lita,

What we see before our eyes is a living horror story indeed and indeed you are right. Unlike other horror spectacles which can be terminated with the click of a button, this one needs so much pushing that I fear some are already weary from all the effort but persevere we must...It is a long and winding road but one worth traveling because the outcome will be the greatest reward of all.

Take care and blessings to you and yours always.

Antares said...

Lita, spoken like a true human being with a magnificent spirit! A big hug x

Estrelita Soliano Grosse said...

MWS: Thanks for the input! I certainly believe that we have to keep going, no matter how bleak things may seem.

Take care and God bless! :)

Estrelita Soliano Grosse said...

Antares: It takes one to know one, my dear!

Hugs for you! :)

Patricia said...

Hi Lita!

That was a simple solution to an unpleasant problem, wasn't it? Shirley drowned out your fear with ... was it 'Hey big spender'? One of my favourites!

Perhaps the solution to our fears is as simple. It could be. Like an 'x' to mark the spot on a little slip of paper.

Estrelita Soliano Grosse said...

Patricia: You're right! Absolutely right except that we have to wait, huh! :)

Orkid Galistan said...

hahaha...yea godma...like watchingthe exoxist wit the volume off...hahhaha

Estrelita Soliano Grosse said...

Orkid: hmmmm :)