25 March 2009

Once in a Lifetime?

Once in a lifetime, you find someone special,
Your lives intermingle and somehow you know
This is the beginning of all you have longed for.
A love you can build on, a love that will grow...

Once in a lifetime,
To those who are lucky,
A miracle happens
And dreams all come true...

I know it can happen,
It happened to me,
For I've found
My "once in a lifetime"
with you.

I bought a card with these words for DC in 1990, the year before he died. At that point in time, I would never have imagined that I had unconsciously imposed a kind of sentence on myself. That self-imposed unwitting notion was such a negative idea that I would never know another love.

However, I'm blessed because in my case, it's "twice in a lifetime". I've found a second miracle.

It is true!!! When God closes one door, He does open another.

Sometimes you don't even have to be looking! You can be found.

If you have been confused by some of the postings, wondering if I have lost touch with reality, then I hope this will set the record straight. I am happily and blissfully remarried.

I think some part of me, needed to put it all down and to let it go. I think that after this blogging, I'll really be able to move on with a clear conscience.

I've loved DC with all my heart and my soul. I have no regrets when I look back. We had a wonderful life together. We were friends, lovers, husband/wife and then parents. We had 18 years of which 7 were as a married couple. We've done almost everything except to grow old together.

Now when I look back, it's a distant memory. It's a warm feeling to have known that love and that life. I've come out of it so much better and richer and wiser. When I looked at the old photos, I realised that the old life is no more and it was time to move on. It was when I realised that I could start anew.

We must not be afraid of starting over and loving again. To shut oneself away from life and love is a crime. I think what my brother said to me sums it all up. "Let the dead rest in peace, and the living go on living". Unconsciously, I did that.

I'm reminiscing because I've reached a great milestone in my life. I count my blessings. I have many, I admit. I'm truly grateful for each one.

But most of all, I thank God for Stephen and for Jared. They've loved me through and through.


Patricia said...

I was happy to read this final chapter in your series. That it started with love, and it ends with love, is beautiful.

May you and Stephen and Jared share many happy and wondrous years together.

I'm glad to find out that lightning does, indeed, strike twice in the same place after all :)

shanghaistephen said...

My dear Lita,
Very moving and touching.
And I thank God for knowing you too dear.
Cheers and regards to the other Stephen and Jared too.
Godbless !

Estrelita Soliano Grosse said...

Pat: Isn't it just a great discovery? I think you know love first hand! It shows! Love you! :)

ShanghaiStephen: You are such a sweet guy. Never afraid to show your emotions!

Cheers to you too! :)