Receiving a poem dedication today, I remembered writing one myself, way back in January 1993. I've written many but never published any. Now that I have a blog, it's only fitting that the first ever poem I post, should be dedicated to this little fella who left such a dent in our lives.
Once upon a time, there was a little boy
with curly brown hair, who gave me such joy
He was my son. I called him Eric
cute as could be, but then he was sick
He was delightful with his cheeky ways
keeping me busy through all of his days
He had a hole in his heart, known as VSD
not many knew, except for the family
At two, he had to have open-heart surgery
how painful for him and for me such misery
But he was brave and smiled even in the ICU
My precious child, experiencing something new
He recovered from the ordeal and came back
Then he had a hypertension attack
He collapsed at home, near his brother and I
We both panicked and feared that he would die
With terror in our hearts and such pain in mine
I suddenly felt he would leave us behind
I relived again all the tension and stress
realising that I could have one person less
I held my son and whispered a prayer
"Don’t take him, Lord, just don’t you dare!"
How could I endure some more pain?
Would I survive it? Would I be sane?
Six months later, I'm still grieving inside,
so much to let go off and so much to hide
I love you, Eric Joseph, and I always will
and life for me is like walking uphill
It's so difficult, not having you now
but I have to manage, someway, somehow
I had you dear Eric, for only two years
now all I have left, are just my tears
You've gone somewhere better, that I know
But it's hard to be happy when I miss you so
My "Once upon a time", is just a short chapter
Without the "they lived happily ever after."
-17 January 1993-
The 2 brothers, Jared John and Eric Joseph in 1991